said it was over
and im slowly dealin
but deep inside there's this awful pain im feeling
i wonder when it will end
when can love start again

told myself that you probably need some time and
maybe then you would come to change your mind but
now i know i was wrong
guess i gotta be strong.. i gotta move on

though in time things will heal in my heart
but right now im just falling apart yeah

if i knew that you still love me
i could.. undo the pain i caused and i would
take it all away so you'd stay
but its too late for that
coz your not coming back ...no moreohhhhhh

so much i'll never had the chance to say
though im still hopin that you come back one day but
dont know why i pretend
when i know in my heart i wont see you again

though in time i will have to let go
right now i just need you to know yeah yeah

don't wanna have to close the door
and i dont want another view no more
is there nothing that i can do to change the way you
feel
coz if i knew ...

i dont know what the hell im going to post. magulo utak ko ngayon. bahala na kung ano na lang.
i feel so... empty. people around me can see me smiling just like everything's fine. but. deep inside, im screaming. with pain.
i can't help myself not to cry. i just faced the window of the car to hide the tears in my eyes. (my mom might see me.) and at that exact moment, it rained. the sky's crying too.. just like me. i shower raindrops to release the pain inside me. and thunder is my voice. to tell the world how angry i am.
..............should i let you go? that question's been running around my head all day. a lot of people say  im brave. well, they're just trying to make me feel better. but losing you is a tragedy. it's like there's a war inside of me. it's that very special game that i lose. 2 years. ang hirap iwan yun ng basta basta. my dreams suddenly fade away. basta basta ko lang pinamigay sa ibang tao yung pinakaminamahal ko. may magagawa pa ba ako kung sa iba sya masaya? sacrifice nalang ako. that's UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. sabi nga nya sakin.
today.. was hell. i had enough.
just the same thing for tomorrow.

there's one thing you told me that i would never forget; "you'll always be in my heart..."
... :,(

our class party last night was great! everyone had a great time, danced away the night, laughed away those past tiring, sleepless nights (just to submit plates on time.), beers, vodkas and tequila shots everywhere, almost everyone got drunk (kasali ba ko dun?haha.duh) and, showed each and everyone's wild-ER side(for the first time). it really was fun! last night's one of my memorable moments. :) though may hang over pa ko, its okay. i had fun naman eh. ;D

next term uli :)


EVER AFTER

Three years ago my journey began
Chasin down this cure no plan in hand
Just your pulse, my reason guiding the dark
Just no wind with conviction from the start
The moment your eyes made an introduction
I felt my second violent breath of life
Flawless to the point of bein cocky
Yet I fell for all your imperfections

Now its slightly weathered, its slightly worn
Our hands gripped together, eye to eye through the storm
I do believe in ever after with you
Cause life is a pleasure with you by my side
And there aint no current in this river we cant ride
I do believe in ever after with you

Nothing compares to the good times
Feels like were floating when the rest of them climb
You made me believe in love and not the perfect kind
A real messy beautiful, twisted sunshine
Emotions: volcanic eruptions
We both took care so were still alive
Tunnel vision . . . determination
I want you, I want to make it right

Now its slightly weathered its slightly worn
Our hands gripped together, eye to eye through the storm
I do believe in ever after with you
Cause life is a pleasure with you by my side
And there aint no current in this river we cant ride
I do believe in ever after with you

You are my twisted sunshine
You are my twisted sunshine

(music played last night where everyone's on the dance floor)

jealousy.
paranoia.
anger.

nakita isang umaga sa Buendia (sa simbahan? :D)
agad nilapitan (ako'y nilapitan)
kamustahan, nagkangitian
naalala ang mga nakalipas
sayong mga mata pa lang
kitang kita may tinatago ka
para bang gusto mo kong balikan
pero di na wag na lang kasi ako ngayon

ok na ko ngayon
di tulad ng dati umiiyak sa iyo
ok na ko ngayon
di tulad ng dati
umaasa sayo

nagpaalam
ako'y aalis na
salamat sa munting kwentuhan
"kelan tayo magkikitang muli?"
sabi ko di na
di na kailangan!
paalam na o giliw ko
ako'y lalayo na
lumigaya ka sana!!!
wag mong kalilimutan ito
isang paalala na para sayo
kasi ako ngayon

ok na ko ngayon
di tulad ng dati umiiyak sayo
ok na ko ngayon
di tulad ng dati nahihibang sayo

ok na ko ngayon
di tulad ng dati umaasa sayo
ok na ko ngayon
di tulad ng dati natotorete sayo
ok na ko ngayon
di tulad ng dati nahihibang sa iyo

hahaha! :D ang funny!

haven't updated my blog for 2 weeks. or 3? and, 3 weeks ng pagpupuyat. today, im sick. and, BORED. ugh. 2 weeks to go before 2nd term. we have history subject this time. (arts and architecture) history again. oh well. my head's giving me a headache.(what??) waah whatever.

.....................B U H. its patrick's term (spongebob s.p.) haha kakahawa. :)

"i want you back" damn. that phrase is haunting me for a week now.

buh.

"lie down right next to me, and il never let go.. never let go." LSS ko lang. ;)

whew. its been a very busy week for me. and VERY HOT.
i really hate thursdays. its freehand drawing day.
geesh. i really hate that subject! it frustrates me. (and/or maybe the professor?) Grr.
and i hate going to school at 12 noon! its very freakin hot.

oh. by the way...
jan passed architecture in up!

keep it up! im very proud of you. :) mwahh!